Too Fast!!

I have always loved when stores put out their back to school stuff. I know, it is the 5th of July and summer is just in full swing. I love the new crayons, markers, glue. As a teacher I love new border, markers, and classroom decorations. Well, this may be the first year that all of these school supplies makes me sick. You see, this year it is all different. This year is not just a regular back to school. This year is not just me going back to school after being off for the summer with my little ones. This year is not when I have to leave my little ones with care, trust, shelter, and love of Grammie. This year is not ever going to be the same. This year Katie Lee starts kindergarten!! This year Katie Lee will be beginning one of many new steps in life. This year Donnie and I will be beginning one of many new steps in life. This year Katie Lee will have to make new friends, make wise choices on her own, and learn from someone knew. Oh, where has the time gone? This has happened way to fast. I thought I was ready for this, but I am not sure that I am. See it all became really real tonight because of this....

A Lalaloopsy bookbag and Lalaloopsy lunchbox. Tonight Katie Lee, Daniel, and I ran to Target hoping to finding some 4th of July stuff at a great deal. (More on that on another day.) Anyway, we were picking a few things we needed and just looking around. We came to the school supplies. Sure we can look at these. Remember I love back to school supplies. Then we came to the bookbags and Katie Lee spots the Lalaloopsy ones. Right away she asked if she could have it for school. I said yes. It was perfect for her since she loves them so. She quickly finds the matching lunchbox. She puts them on and grins from ear to ear. She is so excited that she wants to wear it the rest of the way in the store. I quickly snap a picture to send to Donnie. Then we continue looking but I cannot see anything in the store except my baby girl walking around with her kindergarten backpack on. I suddenly feel this lump in my throat and tear swelling up in my eyes. So here I am fighting back the tears walking around in Target. Really how crazy would I have looked completely falling apart in Target!! I get it kind of together and let KL finish looking. All of I could was how much I hope I did not run into anyone I knew because I would have probably lost it. You know the big ugly cry that would stop!! We finally get to the checkout. I purposely pick the youngest girl so she would not say something like, "I remember when my baby started school." CRAZY!! HA So, I have about 6 weeks to pull myself together and spend as much time with my little ones because they are growing up WAY TOO FAST!!!